excerpt from Margie's Journal

From Margie's journal:

"Seeing some of the hormone-driven couples around me (won't mention names, although it doesn't matter because I don't think even Tia knows them) makes me realize that what I want is stability, something meaningful and long-term in my relationships. I had a couple chances to start something with someone, a close friend, a little while back, but I didn't pursue it, things told me I still wanted someone else.. even if I'm not sure that that he even wants me in that way anymore. I guess I realize more than ever that friends are the basis for everything, and if you don't have that, a relationship, no matter how exciting and flirtatious it may be in the beginning (damned lust), if you don't have communication and some kind of connection it doesn't work. A relationship should give you peace, happiness and calmness and I'm trying to get that back in my life :) I'm happy with my current situation, I hope that the wounds (ew, that sounds gross! :P) can heal and that maybe, just maybe, I can have that second chance. I know I made it weird, and I'm sorry. I was caught up in what was happening to me, and didn't care about what I was doing to you :S For that, I'm sorry.

But I know I'm a really awesome girl, and well, I'm feeling a lot happier lately :) Cmon Margie! Haha :D I know I can do this right :P "

I think I'm starting to understand what I want, combined with what the Mudd environment allows, and okay, I think I can work things out. I'm grateful to all my friends (including you guys) for all your/their hugs and cuddles and good advice :P

~ Awesome pictures Gracia and Tani :D You have succeeded in making me quite envious! Aiii. Oh yes, and I got your postcard from Prague too, Gracia, thankie you!