Not quite *good news*

I am just going to be cheap and post the same thing I posted on my LJ..

I got the Resident Assistant (RA) position! That means free housing for the whole year, and whats great is that if I want to continue doing it after next year I dont have to re-apply! Anyway, I really wanted this... I dont think I have wanted soething sooo much in years (not even about colleges, coz i had no idea where I wanted to go.) The main reason I wanted it was because I felt that I was just whiling away my time here without doing anything productive or espeacially interesting. Though I am in clubs and stuff, I still felt like I needed to do something.
Its weird how you want something so much and when you do get it, you wish you hadn't! My very close friend (who also wanted this VERY much) was offered an alernate position. What that basically means is that if an RA leaves, she will be offered that place. But she was very upset. I never thought only one of us would get it, it was always both or niether... And to top it all of, my roommate is seriously considering to transfer to NYU, coz she is longing for a city. And what adds to her decision is the fact that she won't have a fixed roommate for next year (RA's have to live in a singel). These are the two closest friends I have at Bucknell and I am going to be separated from both of them next year... Its just depressing. I just wish I hadn't gotten the position.

P.S. Margie and Josie... I was wonderful talking to the two of you... You guys really cheered me up :D Its good to know that I still have all you guys - my *old friends*